to will an eternal recurrence of this would be a kind of insanity but it is nonetheless possible I could have done without the c-diff and the stodgy hospital food but my life at its very worst was at least engagingly awful those who set my dumpster ablaze included a few awesome pyrotechnics they were the rightly trashy fireworks after that long and tedious fuse was so tortuously consumed just to realize that I was there while all the crazy bad shit went down as if I had consented preemptively to such a spectacular fecal display imposes a certain serenity and yes I would live it all over again as if I had known of no other way
