I'm must be crazy my self respect has been getting lazy, i let myself fall into this trap, I know better then do this crap, can't trust a soul, they will all eat you whole.. they are not my friend, what message does this send, letting all of these pretenders in, you new you would never win, that was then and this is now, they all through me under the bus still wow, I'm really dumb and hurt my self, doing this is bad for my health. we had it once but now is gone, and everything just feels so wrong, i opened my heart for you to once again tare it apart, all along i new you would back from the start. now I feel like a fuck head, and wish I could take back everything IV said, suicidal thoughts come back and and my soul and spirit are under attack. I wish I could be much stronger. and switch if my feelings to feel no longer. it's my fault chasing something I can not ever own, after all these years I really should have fucking known. I was born alone and will die alone, I feel dumb for all the love I have shown. I have to go there's nothing for me waiting here for nothing to change, I'm just looking like a hurt fool and acting strange, theres no future for me hear, the answers are all clear. I never should have come back to you, I knew what it would put me through. but I still thought it was a risk worth taking, but now I'm left here body weak I was mistaken. left my self breaking breaking im shaken bad choices I keep making leave me breaking breaking all over again I'm just breaking.
