Verse 1 Why can’t I say it, it’s just one word Plain as a prayer, sharp as a curse It hangs in the silence, won’t let me rest Like a shadow I carry deep in my chest I had good parents, a home full of love Four close siblings, I thank God above School days were golden, friends and the game I took some hard hits, they just called it pain Pre-Chorus They said, “Shake it off, son, you’ll be fine” But some things don’t heal with the passing of time Chorus I won’t say the word, I won’t give it a name If I let it out, I’m scared it might stay I’ve come too far, I’ve got too much to lose A wife who loves me, kids I can’t lose So I bite my tongue, and I bow my head I carry the weight of the things unsaid I’m scared of tomorrow, but here today I’m still breathing, Lord And I won’t say the word Verse 2 Life kept rolling, a business to run More knocks to the head, more damage done Doctors in circles, bottles in lines Too many pills messing up my mind Hospitals humming through sleepless nights CTE whispers, fear in my eyes Dreams turn violent, my body won’t rest Movements like lightning inside my head 90s Pre-Chorus I stayed standing when I wanted to fall Stayed quiet when I wanted to call Chorus I won’t say the word, I won’t let it win I’ve already lost too much to give in There’s shame in the silence, but strength there too I’m still fighting for her, still fighting for you I’m scared of the future, what it might bring Seizures stealing my nights, my everything But as long as I’m here, I’ll choose to stay No, I won’t say the word Verse 3 Cancer came knocking, stage four news More poison to fight it, more I could lose The tumors backed down, but the shaking stayed Like my body forgot how to obey I wake up places I don’t recall Under my truck, against the wall Keys on the counter, driving’s gone Still gotta be strong, still gotta go on Bridge God, I don’t ask why, I just ask how To make it through this moment now If tomorrow hurts less, that’ll be enough If it doesn’t, Lord, I’ll still hold on Chorus (Final) I won’t say the word, I won’t let it live I’ll give You the fear, all I 6thcan give I’m dying inside, but I’m still here Still loving my family, still staying near This isn’t the road I would’ve chose But it’s the one my faith still knows Tomorrow’s coming, come what may I trust Your plan And I won’t say the word Outro Maybe the pain will ease someday Maybe the noise will fade away Till then I’ll walk, I’ll pray, I’ll stay I won’t say the word… No, not today
