[Verse 1] I pick my pieces up every single fucking day Same old scene, same routine, just find another fucking way Clean the mess so they don’t see the shit yesterday left Sweep it up quiet, hide the wreckage, do my best I know they feel it too, that same pain growing behind their eyes I showed them how to fucking hurt, not just how to survive I feel like I’ve fucked their lives up just like mine Dragged down in silence, the pull-back, the way a man gets stuck I can’t take back what I was, can’t change the years I was fucked I see me through their eyes, feel my demons carving out their chest Heard the same voice I carry … the same be less What they saw wasn’t a man doing his best Just a broken shadow wearing his father’s fuckin vest [Pre-Chorus] I quit on myself so they wouldn’t have to learn the cost Now I’m watching them do the same shit I thought I’d lost It’s them or fucking nothing, that’s the only road I’ve ever known But if I keep walking it like this, we’re all gonna end up alone [Chorus] I’m alone in this house full of people who feel just as hollow Carrying the same quiet that I swore I’d never make them swallow Look at what I used to do, fuck, it makes me sick Letting my past convince me I was alone even when I wasn’t I was just an angry man, not Angry Dad Pointing rage at the wrong fuckin thing, passing down the same pain I asked for days, I broke my back, I kept the lights on Only after I fucking shatter do they notice where I’ve gone Then they help for a minute, close their doors, stay small ‘Cause my meltdown looked like anger, not a man who’d lost it all I don’t want to be the lesson that teaches them to quit But I was already teaching them how to feel like fucking shit [Verse 2] I can’t undo the damage, can’t make them un-feel what I gave Can’t make the house feel whole when I’m the one digging their fucking graves I was supposed to be the wall, the steady one, the one who fuckin stayed Instead I’m handing them the debt for the price I fucking paid When a man keeps moving while he’s already dead inside When he carries everything so nobody else has to hide I gave my soul to the fucking demons somewhere on this ride And I’ll do it again if it means they feel my fucking pride! I know they feel it too, that same pain behind their eyes And I’m the one who put it there, no matter how hard I fuckin tried [Bridge] The reality is ugly and it’s sitting in my fucking chest If I keep living like I’m dead, they’re gonna end up less Less whole, less sure, less able to believe That someone can stay without eventually having to leave I can’t change what I was, but I can’t keep being what I am A man who’s already gone while he’s still holding their hands It’s them or fucking nothing, and nothing’s getting close ‘Cause I’m not in a fucken hole yet, i’m not fucking their lives up. Maybe I’m showing them what staying actually looks like When a man is still broken but refuses to quit [Final Chorus] Still alone in this house full of people feeling just as broke Picking up the same pieces, carrying the same heavy load I asked for help till I couldn’t, till the words turned into ash Only after I collapse do they see the man behind the mask I don’t want to show them quitting, so I’m showing them the cost Of a dad who stayed present while his soul got lost They feel the way I feel, that’s the part that fucking kills I can’t keep living like I’m dead because they’re learning how it feels So fuck the old me. And fuck letting the past run this house. I’ll point the rage where it fuckin belongs Not at them, and not at their Fuckin Angry Dad. That’s where this road fuckin ends. Find a way to come back from the dead Before the quiet gets too loud in their heads [Outro} Maybe thats the fucking point.... even when you’re fucked up… choosing to stay the strongest thing a man can fuckin do.
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