Afterthought

Afterthought Verse 1 Your plane tickets say anywhere But somehow never here. You can cross a thousand borders Just to vanish when I’m near. Google Maps shows my location, Barely half a day away, But my name must be a detour ’Cause you keep choosing every other way. I’m the calendar reminder You keep swiping out of sight, The conversation bubble That stays typing every night. You say love’s a constellation— Open sky, no cage, no chains, But I’m orbiting your silence Like a satellite in rain. ⸻ Pre-Chorus And I’m tired of the distance That isn’t measured in miles— It’s measured in the way you read my words But never read between the lines. ⸻ Chorus I’m your afterthought, afterthought tonight, Somewhere at the back of your mind. You say you love me every time— But you don’t even try. You can fly across the ocean, But you can’t cross my street, Guess my heart’s just a country You forgot to visit me. I keep breathing for the both of us Till my lungs are black and blue— I’m the only one still trying To keep a pulse inside “us two.” I’m fading in your headlights Like a ghost you never saw— I’m not asking you to love me, Just stop loving me like I’m an afterthought. ⸻ Verse 2 You said “prove that you’re getting better,” So I swallowed all my pride. Therapy rooms and folding chairs Just to keep you by my side. One relapse and suddenly I’m the villain in your book— Funny how forgiveness dies When you’re the one who never looks. He stumbled once— And you called him strong and brave. But my honesty was ammunition For the war you never named. I told the truth with shaking hands, Thought you’d catch me when I fell— But you just held my confession Like a weapon for yourself. ⸻ Pre-Chorus And I’m tired of defending A love that won’t defend me back— You say trust is unconditional But yours came with a contract. ⸻ Chorus I’m your afterthought, afterthought tonight, Somewhere at the back of your mind. You say you love me every time— But you don’t even try. You can fly across the ocean, But you can’t cross my street, Guess my heart’s just a country You forgot to visit me. I keep breathing for the both of us Till my lungs are black and blue— I’m the only one still trying To keep a pulse inside “us two.” I’m fading in your headlights Like a ghost you never saw— I’m not asking you to love me, Just stop loving me like I’m an afterthought. ⸻ Bridge I know love isn’t possession, And I never asked for chains. But freedom shouldn’t mean I’m the only one in pain. Love was always meant For hearts that stretch and grow— But somehow mine’s the only one That ever seems to show. I keep lighting little matches In a house that lost its flame, Trying to warm a dying room While you forget my name. And I can’t even leave you ’Cause I’d rather break than bruise— So I’m learning how to disappear Before you make me choose. ⸻ Final Chorus I’m your afterthought, afterthought tonight, Somewhere at the back of your mind. You say you love me every time— But you don’t even try. You can fly across the ocean, But you can’t cross my street, Guess my heart’s just a country You forgot to visit me. I keep breathing for the both of us Till my lungs are black and blue— I’m the only one still trying To keep a pulse inside “us two.” I’m fading in your headlights Like a ghost you never saw— I’m not asking you to love me… I just don’t want to be your afterthought.