My head is a locked room With the lights flickering on and off Every thought’s a threat Every calm feels like a setup I wake up already chasing Damage I haven’t done yet Apologizing in advance For the way my body reacts Chorus I’m exhausted from the chaos From babysitting my own skin Every feeling hits full force No buffer, no warning, no in-between I don’t get to “cool down” I combust or I collapse Then I get blamed for the fire Like I struck the match on purpose Verse 2 I don’t trust distance I don’t trust closeness Both feel like loss in disguise Every connection’s unstable ground I’m always waiting for it to give way Tone changes rewrite the room Silence turns into verdicts I don’t imagine abandonment I recognize the pattern early Chorus I’m exhausted from the chaos From living in extremes Every attachment is urgent Every goodbye is a scream You say “think before you react” Like there’s time between Impact and instinct In a system trained on fear Verse 3 My emotions don’t pass through me They occupy They take over the controls And lock me inside I don’t escalate to win I escalate to stay This is not attention This is panic with a voice Chorus I’m exhausted from the chaos From being labeled instead of heard From carrying the aftermath Of feelings that don’t wait their turn You want me functional, palatable Neatly regulated and safe But I live where the volume’s broken And everything comes through at max Break (spoken / cold) I am not choosing this. I am managing it. There is a difference You refuse to see. Final Chorus I’m exhausted from the chaos Of a brain that never rests Every moment is containment Every connection a test Call it borderline, call it unstable Call it whatever helps you cope But don’t call it a choice When I’m barely staying afloat Outro No resolve No peace Just breath Held Again
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