you called me and told me to stop writing songs about you, I didn't think I'd hear from you after all we put ourselves through, but you paid me back and fixed your bill, I realised how much I care for you still, even though I know your love for me has gone away, I can't let you leave my life, I think bout you each day. but even though I know we push each other cross the line, and we both got so tired of pretending we were fine, but maybe what we had was not so bad after all, but boy I'm so glad that I did answer your call, I only meant to come and get some stuff from you that night, but your poison makes me need you, even makes me feel all right, when you pull me closer and my heart beats so fast in my chest, I loose all sight of what I'm doing and forget life and my quest. you have always been my best friend, my only one I really loved for real, everytime we break up you don't understand how I feel. i fall apart, don't think so smart, I hate life then, won't see you again, my heart hurts so bad, and you still are mad, I'm dying slow, you already know , but no matter what I feel you have already let me go, and now I know that hurts to hear, and this is something I did fear, I'm still somehow thankful any way just that you still are near. it's been a week now and I struggle to leave, it's hard to walk away if you know you still believe. I know you have made it very clear that you don't still love me like you use too, but I hate the thought of you and me being over and through. you picked me up at my worst point in my life I thought, but I was wrong and so many hard lessons I was taught. my best friend my lover my daddy and his bubba, I hate him I love him but I cant live with out him, when he holds me, my fire lives on it's never dim, my best friend my lover my daddy I'm his bubba I miss him, he hates me, I'm alone and he is free, but I cant shake the feeling he is always a part of me. we been through so much together but always stayed together, no matter how bad the weather. I can't tell him no and he knows that, in worship the ground he walked on or where ever he sat. we made a child together but decided for the child it wasn't very clever. so I hold that hurt with me till the day I'm gone as well, but no one knows the story's of how we dragged our selves through hell. people got so jealous of how well we got along, they would get in the middle and some how make it wrong, but even when hed leave me I never gave up believing even through the both of us deceiving. cause I know not any one can take that place, no one can fill the space, I can't feel the same with any other guy, that's why everyone I see when where aparts a lie.
