Loving From Afar

[Verse 1] You laugh at his jokes The way I wish you laughed at mine I play the ghost in every room A shadow just behind You tell me how he holds your hand Like it’s some sacred thing And every word cuts velvet-deep With diamonds on the sting [Pre-Chorus] I hate that he gets your midnight calls Your tired eyes, your storms, your all [Chorus] And I keep loving you From the wrong side of the door Like a song that never reaches The radio anymore You’re dancing in someone else’s arms While I’m learning how to lose Yeah, the hardest kind of heartbreak Is the one you cannot choose [Verse 2] I memorize the little things The freckles near your smile The way your voice gets softer When you talk about your life And maybe in another world Or some unbroken timeline You’d be tracing constellations Here against these hands of mine [Pre-Chorus] But fate can be a cruel machine Turning “almost” into memories [Chorus] And I keep loving you From the wrong side of the door Like a fire in an empty house Nobody lives in anymore You’re wrapped up in someone else’s arms While I’m holding back the truth Yeah, the hardest kind of heartbreak Is still falling after proof [Bridge] So I’ll smile when you say his name Like it doesn’t hollow out my chest I’ll raise a glass to your happiness And bury what I never confessed [Final Chorus] Still I keep loving you Even knowing I should run But the heart’s a reckless outlaw Never listening to anyone You’re shining in someone else’s sky While I fade into the blue And the cruelest part of loving you… Is you never meant me to.