in a world so big, no wonder why I feel so small, makes me wonder how one person can shine amongst us all, we are born with out no answer to what we cane here for, but we all sense it in us, that we were destined to do more, and I have found so many answers to so many questions I ask about, but still so many questions I don't know and leaves me in doubt. so much I wondered about were it is we come from and in the end were we go does anybody know, I died once I was three and my god mother sat next to me, I never met her before I was born cause sadly her life was torn, she took my somewhere lovely I just didn't want to leave, she said I had to go back home I had more yet to achieve, I felt like an elastic band as I flew into my body again, and since then I have just been waiting for the end my asthma attack left me dead in the hospital, a lifeless life taken left my body there so little, but second chance I still fucked that up as well, I wonder were Ill go next once I'm done living in this hell, I tried to see a better version of me, trying more each day since back when I was there, but no one really knows the person who I am inside, even to myself there are parts of me I hide, I turned to god at one stage thinking It is what I was missing, looking for a place I belonged that was what I was wishing, but I have to play the hand I was dealt, and worry bout how everyone felt, o forgot to ask the questions I should have asked instead, I followed other peoples thoughts and they got into my head. I wish I got more answers before life got closer to the end, I wish I met more people who cared and were not pretend. I wish for many parts of life I wish I could amend. but no that one day I'll go back to the place I was that time I died, I warm love that hugged me and when I felt it I cried, no one has ever made me feel so like I was finally at home once more, I know I can't wait till one day I can knock again on God's front door, and he can show me if my life Nd how I made everyone feel, and show me of a place were I will be there to heal, but I have to be here in the world for fuck knows what, I just can't see why send us here with no memory all forgot, so god if you awake Ns can hear me please do tell, what did I do I do to deserve being sent here to this hell.buy get your answers ready as I get ready to see you, cause I feel I failed you challenges and have nothing left do. come and bring me home again please.. you got me begging for you I'm down on both my knees. don't make me have to stay here with people that don't love me come and take me home and set my spirit free
