[intro] [soft piano + distant vocal hum] yeah sometimes I wake up and I don't know what I'm feeling (what I'm feeling) [verse 1] Sometimes I wanna feel everything around me Let the whole world hit me, let it surround me I wanna laugh, I wanna cry, I wanna be alive I wanna look in the mirror and recognize my eyes I wanna hear somebody say they really know me I wanna feel close when somebody's holding me I wanna stop running every time it gets real I wanna understand everything that I feel But some days I don't wanna feel a thing Let the phone keep ringing, let it do its thing I get tired of carrying what's inside my head Tired of replaying every word that was said I build these walls and I hide behind them Then wonder why nobody can find me [pre-chorus] I keep going back and forth Trying to figure out what I'm looking for One day I'm reaching for the sky Next day I wanna disappear for the night [chorus] Sometimes I wanna feel Sometimes I wanna let it all in Sometimes I wanna heal Sometimes I wanna run from everything I don't know why I'm like this I don't know where my mind goes I'm caught between wanting somebody close And wanting to be alone [post-chorus] (sometimes I wanna feel) (sometimes I don't) I keep fighting with myself Trying to find my way home [verse 2] I got a thousand thoughts that I never say A hundred different versions of me every day Everybody sees the smile when I walk in Nobody sees the war that I'm caught in I can be surrounded and still feel empty I can have people around and nobody gets me Maybe I'm scared of letting somebody see The parts of myself that I don't even believe I want a connection that doesn't fade away Someone who stays when I don't know what to say Someone who knows when I'm losing my mind And doesn't leave me behind [bridge] Maybe I'm learning Maybe I'm changing Maybe I'm more than the things that break me [buildup] [heartbeat bass + rising synth] I wanna feel I wanna breathe I wanna know What's underneath [beat drop] [heavy bass drop] (sometimes I wanna feel) (sometimes I don't) [glitch vocal chops] [final chorus] Sometimes I wanna feel Let the emotions take control Sometimes I wanna heal Put the pieces back into my soul I know I'm complicated I know I can be hard to hold But I'm still searching for a place Where I don't have to let go Sometimes I wanna feel Sometimes I wanna disappear But I'm still standing here Trying to figure out these years [outro] [soft piano fades] sometimes I wanna feel sometimes I don't but I'm still here
