when you went away, every one felt safe enough to tell me what they knew, i just didn't want to believe that it was something you would do, deep down I felt it I already ready felt, but hearing form all different people the same story that I imagined made my heart melt. combine the time line of that night that your story didn't add up, despite the feeling I felt loosing you and watching you erupt. my stomach has never lied I went back to my hotel and almost died. took all those pills and had a bath to calm down, in stead the bath tub flooded my fave down I almost drowned, you pulled me out the bath and out me to bed, but you had no idea about what was said. I knew already but when I asked you about being with a girl you lied. I accepted your answer but knew it didn't feel right, I later found out once you were gone buy your own friends that you did me wrong I have the messages she sent about you coming there, I can't believe it I just lost our child next day your fooling round, you can't say it didn't happen i have your time line and messages from that night. I stayed home to rest cause our baby died. and you are booking room for some slut you hardly knew, I can believe this is something that you could do. but your story makes no sense and doesn't check out with the evidence. I hope you know even thought you can't own it and tell me the truth. this is the one and only time Ill forgive this next time no excuse. I'll walk out the door and never look back. my heart can't take no more shit if it's love you lack. don't use and abuse my nature and kind heart i got, cause I grieving and you just forgot. how could you even care about another girls needs that night. I sat at home with blood clots and a dead baby, your either a monster or a coward i still don't no, but when your out I'll expect its only me youll need to show, your love to. if its true. dont tell me it didn't happen cause I'm not dumb don't insult me. just make it better now and show me if you care you'd have told me. make it right before I let you go, show me love , show me how sorry you really feel, or watch me walk and leave and I'll find someone real. help me heal. be real. don't lie, don't insult me, dont treat me like im stupid, I want more then that
