why do I hate myself this much I destroy every thing good that comes my way, like i don't feel I deserve it, and my self worth is not there to say... stop being so hard on yourself this way, I need myself to make me feel I'm okay, to accept happiness in to my life again, remind me I'm not my enemy that I'm my friend. my golden heart is not for you to fucking ruin, I see what you are thinking and worse what you are doing. go fuck your own life up and leave mine alone, you can't break a heart if it's made out of stone. tell me yes when I'm feeling no to get up out of bed and give it a go, 90% of success is just being there, don't let others opinions make me not care. I'm a good person and I know that yeah, and I know that life just isnt fair. I have met a lot of bad people and good people to. but both good and bad no one cares what i have been through, even if they were told and still with all the knowledge of my life they still won't care it's true Iv helped the people up that have pushed me down feed people that done me wrong, because no matter what evil has there souls I'll still help them along. if being cool mean to be like them, I am happy to be a a loser friend, Id rather not let them change my life to try to be like there's, I like being me,the one of very few, of people that still cares. it's made me last at many things and I have learnt in time whos worth the time I spend, and still so many in the end a just pretend.. my golden heart is not for you to fucking ruin, I see what you are thinking and worse what you are doing. go fuck your own life up and leave mine alone, you can't break a heart if it's made out of stone. my energy drains so fast, when Im taking to someone fake, in the end I'm the only one left in disappointment and heart break. my X taught me so much about what not to tolerate, cause I did with him for so long that in the end all I feel like hate. so I must still flick my middle finger up and tell everyone what I feel, but never will I let those nasty people have my good nature to steel. cuz in the end I've learnt so many people want what they haven't been given,many people don't have a pure heart like mine there not driven. if the world changes, and they still hating on each other if they're stop the wearing a mask as a cover, if the world could recognize the damage they do make, they might change who they are intake of the mask of fake my golden heart is not for you to fucking ruin, I see what you are thinking and worse what you are doing. go fuck your own life up and leave mine alone, you can't break a heart if it's made out of stone. the world that we're living in has f***** me up proper made me a person and then nobody can stop her. a good person that can do bad things, but remain inside a caring person to others, create a monster but in the end I will always be a lover.
