## Copyright © Riceau Lyrics by @Riceau, audio creative direction by collaborating with my AI team, audio by Suno Wish me luck 😥🥹 UPDATE: I'm amazed by and thankful for the outpour of support. I never thought about the response when I clicked publish. But even if I would, I wouldn't have seen this coming. Thank you everyone for your incredibly kind words of support. It means more to me than I can put into words. And then.... @Meiva decided to create an amazing motivational shanty to help me as well. Please listen to this awesome song and watch the counter slowly rise as I will play this every time I feel the urge to get a smoke. https://suno.com/song/3d266d15-90c1-4fee-a82d-14f55c83d4db I am humbled. Truly. Thank you ❤️ Day 1 update: Going unexpectedly well - some cravings, some weird sensations, nothing major so far. I'm not even grumpy! I'm thinking this is because of the overwhelming support by all you beautiful souls ❤️ Day 2 update: Day 1 was pretty intense, but not as intense I thought it would be - mostly because of the amazing support you lovely people gave me - the intensity of that outweighed my craving intensity by a LOT. Today I still feel some cravings. But you know what? It's not even that hard to ignore them. End of day update: ok there were a few weird sensations here and there. But I think I've got this! Today the cravings were there, but they were so mild compared to yesterday. I'm gonna make this! First time I'm proud to be a quitter. Day 3 update: It's getting easier and easier! Resting heart rate dropped by like 20 BPM, wtf. Still wondering when I'll get grumpy! I did notice that I'm having a bit of a harder time feeling creative, but Powerless proves to me I can still do it. Just have to dig a little bit deeper. Day 4 update: Still nicotine free. Even spoke for quite a while to someone who smoked three cigs during our conversation and that didn't trigger me at all! But somehow late at night I went on the hunt for a smoke that I might have missed in my house. But past Riceau did his job well and thoroughly cleaned up and sabotaged that attempt. Thanks past Riceau! Week 3 day 1 update: STILL NICOTINE FREEEEEEEEEE Week 5 day 1 update: Four weeks nicotine free. Does that make it official? ## [Intro] I need you... I want you... But I don't want to want you... LET ME GO!!! [Verse 1] Everyday I wake up This fucking need appears The craving for nicotine... ...The craving for this awful taste that I somehow love I want to let go... ...But I don't want to let go [Verse 2] I hate that I need this I hate that I want this I hate... ... addiction This addiction that took control of my mind Took control of my wallet That damages my autonomy... Costing me this money... Costing me my health... ... Fuck you, cigarettes I fucking hate you... ... I love you... [Chorus] You enable me My weak behaviour You fuck me over And I love you for it But I won't take it anymore I will fight you I will overcome Your fucking grasp Sickening control is yours Autonomy will be mine [Verse 3] I know this will be hard I know I will fall and crawl I don't care Your control... I don't want it anymore. I know I think I need it... ... But I'll show you my strength This toxic dependency... I'll break the fucking chains I'll escape your fucking grasp I'll show you who's in control [Chorus] You enabled me My weak behaviour You fucked me over And I loved you for it But I couldn't take it anymore I am fighting you I am overcoming Your fucking grasp Sickening control was yours Autonomy is mine
