# **WHERE DID YOU GO?** **[Verse 1]** I keep trying to figure out where the hell you went. Because you're standing right here, but you're not the man I married. And that's the part nobody understands— you're alive, you're breathing, you're right in front of me... but I lost you anyway. There wasn't a funeral. Nobody brought me flowers. Nobody said, *"I'm sorry for your loss."* Because how do you explain that you lost your husband when he's still sitting across the room? **[Chorus]** Where did you go? Where the hell did you go? Because I keep looking at your face trying to find the man I used to know. I loved you. I trusted you. I gave you my whole damn heart. And somewhere in all the lies and secrets, you tore that man apart. You're still alive, but the man I loved is gone. And I'm standing here grieving something I can't even put a name on. **[Verse 2]** I didn't lose you because you died. I lost you because you changed. Because there were secrets, other women, hidden conversations, and things I never knew about you. And every time I found something, a little more of you disappeared. You tell me I'm crazy. You tell me I'm making things up. But you don't understand... I'm not grieving because you're dead. **I'm grieving because I don't recognize you anymore.** **[Chorus]** Where did you go? Where the hell did you go? The man who used to hold me, the man I thought would never let me go. The man I trusted with my heart, the man I thought would protect me, somehow became the very person who broke me completely. You're still alive, but something between us died. And God, I wish I could tell you how many nights I've cried. **[Verse 3]** Was it the first lie? Was it the first secret? Was it the first woman? Was it the first time you chose somebody else? Or maybe it happened slowly while I was standing right beside you, loving you like an idiot, believing every promise you ever made to me. That's the part that kills me. I don't even know when I lost my husband. I just know... **I did.** **[Bridge]** And here's the fucked-up part— I still love you. That's why this hurts so damn much. If you were gone forever, maybe someday I'd learn how to accept it. But you're still here. I can hear you. I can see you. I can touch you. And some part of me is still waiting for you to turn around... and be **him** again. The man I married. The man I believed in. The man I thought was my forever. **[Quiet Chorus]** Where did you go? Because I'm still here. I'm still the woman who loved you. I'm still the woman who believed in us. I'm still looking for you inside the man standing in front of me. And I don't know how much longer I can keep looking. **[Final Chorus]** I'm grieving my husband while he's still alive. I'm grieving our marriage while you're still by my side. I'm grieving every promise, every dream, every piece of us I thought we'd never lose. And maybe that's the worst part— I don't want to bury you. **I want my husband back.** I want the man I fell in love with. I want the man who made me feel safe. I want the man who looked at me like I was enough. But I can't keep pretending you're still that man when everything inside me knows something changed. **[Outro]** So where did you go, Cliff? Because I'm still here. And I'm still looking. For my husband... inside the man who's still alive. **And that's the grief nobody understands.** **I didn't lose you to death.** **I lost you while you were still here.**
