Bottle Up

[Verse 1] Passed out on the floor again Boots by the sink, mouth full of grit Woke up mean, woke up blank Same old stain on the same old shirt No fucks left in the tank tonight Just a hand on the bottle neck I been digging at the same old wound Till my fingers know that ache [Pre-Chorus] Bottle up Bite it down Do it now Do it again Try to make A hollow shell So the hurt Has nowhere to land [Chorus] Bottle up, bottle up Break me down to dust Do it all again No fucks, no trust Bottle up, bottle up Make me hard to touch If I get empty It can’t hurt as much (Bottle up) (bottle up) [Verse 2] Morning comes like a busted jaw Cold water, shaking hands I laugh too loud at nothing at all Then I throw back one more can Trauma talks in a patient voice Knows my name like a curse I keep feeding it the same damn proof And it keeps coming back worse [Pre-Chorus] Bottle up Lock it tight Swallow smoke Swallow light If I go numb Maybe then All this damage Fits nowhere in [Chorus] Bottle up, bottle up Break me down to dust Do it all again No fucks, no trust Bottle up, bottle up Make me hard to touch If I get empty It can’t hurt as much (Bottle up) (bottle up) [Bridge] I don’t want a clean-cut saint I don’t want a pretty lie I just want one quiet hour Where the ghosts don’t call my name So I smash it Start again Same bad pull Same dead end [Final Chorus] Bottle up, bottle up Break me down to dust Do it all again No fucks, no trust Bottle up, bottle up Make me hard to touch If I get empty It can’t hurt as much Bottle up, bottle up Till I feel like rust Do it all again Yeah, I do too much (Bottle up) (bottle up)