(In)sanity Verse 1 They said, “Calm is something you can practise.” So I swallowed every spark. Learned to sit like folded laundry While the wildfire paced my heart. Every room became a waiting room. Every smile rehearsed on cue. Turns out you can teach a body silence— You can’t teach it not to bruise. ⸻ Pre-Chorus They ask why my hands still tremble Like the pavement doesn’t too. Funny— Everybody’s shaking. Some just found nicer things to lose. ⸻ Chorus If this is sanity— I’ll stay unwell. I’d rather set my lungs on fire Than decorate my cell. Call me reckless. Call me difficult. Call me anything but healed. Just don’t mistake Your numbness For something real. If this is sanity… Sanity… Then I choose the scream. ⸻ Verse 2 I’ve watched people disappear Without leaving town. Bought a mortgage. Bought a smile. Slowly put themselves back down. Every conversation polished Till nothing living could survive. There’s a thousand ways To die before Anybody says you died. ⸻ Pre-Chorus “Just breathe.” As if oxygen Has ever fixed An empty life. I don’t need less feeling. I need somewhere Truth survives. ⸻ Chorus If this is sanity— I’ll stay unwell. I’d rather lose my voice Than learn to never ring the bell. Call me broken. Call me loud. Call me far too much to keep. But don’t confuse Your comfort With peace. If this is sanity… Sanity… Then I choose the scream. ⸻ Bridge Maybe I’m not broken. Maybe I just noticed. Maybe the canary Wasn’t sick— It left the mine. Maybe every diagnosis Needs a little room For people Who refuse To call survival Living. ⸻ Breakdown You call it balance. I call it shrinking Until nobody feels threatened. You call it healing. I call it becoming Easier to ignore. Sane. Insane. Who’s counting? ⸻ Final Chorus If this is sanity— I’ll stay unwell. I’d rather terrify the silence Than become another shell. Write it in my records. Write it underneath my skin. If feeling everything Is madness— I won’t recover. If this is sanity… Sanity… Then I choose The scream. ⸻ Outro The scariest thing Was never losing my mind. It was almost losing Everything That made it mine.
