You turn your back in the river knowing I’m watching The light drips off your skin I don’t move I don’t breathe I just wait for you to turn “turn to me / turn to me” It’s not the bruise I want It’s what comes after the stillness the reach the release “let go / let in” Sequence is crucial Touch me, then ruin me Don’t skip the part where I choose it I want to watch it happen “I see it / I say yes” The jacket slips off my shoulder like it belongs there Oh men look too long or not at all Either way, I let them imagine what I taste like taste touch not yours Sequence is crucial Touch me, then ruin me Don’t skip the part where I choose it I want to watch it happen “I see it / I say yes” Yeah I asked him to hit me He laughed like I was teasing But I wasn’t I just wanted to feel the *edge* of something before I crossed it “closer / still not enough” It’s not the bruise I want It’s what comes after the stillness the reach the release “let go / let in” Sequence is crucial Touch me, then ruin me Don’t skip the part where I choose it I want to watch it happen “I see it / I say yes” I’ve worn the desire like a second skin Let them wonder Let them ache I already know what I want “want / (yeah) want / not sorry” I never stop watching Even when your eyes are closed Even when mine are The loop isn’t punishment It’s pleasure to press play again to know what’s coming to want it anyway I make it happen with a look with a breath with nothing at all I ask and you listen Or you don’t It doesn’t change the ending I touch it I name it I become it slowly again… again I want Come in I'm ready come
