kev

if I noticed long ago how much I really meant to you, I would have thought twice about the crap I'd put you through, If I knew time was not in our favour I would have treat you better and changed my behaviour, but the clock stopped when your heart stopped that day, and now I know there is nothing I do to make you stay. I knew you were my best friend, but once you left I finally could see, just how lucky I was to have a friend like you to be there for me, I reminis and a memory will remind me of you again, as far back the memories go from when our friendship just began, I didn't know what I was about to loose in the process of loosing my best mate, you left and the world got dark and my life I began to hate. so if your out there somewhere and you are closer than I can see, just know that I am always hoping that you are finally free, but each day I miss you being around, you were the bestest friend that I had ever found, though your gone from this earth you've never left my heart, I wish I could see you once more, it rips me apart, so make sure you come for me when I come to heaven, just know this I miss you more then anything my best mate Kevin. you always did so much to help me you'd do more then I deserve, and I was so blind to how lucky I was I had such a nerve, you would come no matter the time of day or night, and come save me and make me feel alright, you would listen to me for hours get shit of my chest, I didn't get to say before you left how you are the best. the only friend who would sit through my many different emotions, do tie dies and make jewellery and play cards and go through the motions, the patient friend I took for granted I miss so you fucking much I hurt still everyday, I know In the hospital I said good bye and said what I had to say, but truth is I wasn't ready to loose you I still needed you here to stay, and I lost a big part of me when I found out that the went away. so if your out there somewhere and you are closer than I can see, just know that I am always hoping that you are finally free, but each day I miss you being around, you were the bestest friend that I had ever found, though your gone from this earth you've never left my heart, I wish I could see you once more, it rips me apart, so make sure you come for me when I come to heaven, just know this I miss you more then anything my best mate Kevin. one day I pray that we'll see each other again we might not look the same as we did hear, but I hope you realise now that death was nothing like how you did fear. I will come and be there to tell you all the story's and tell you all I have done, but more then any thing I wish to tell you I'm so sorry I wasn't as good to you as you were to me and loosing you was what made me finally see. I know you have much love for me and I hope you are still watching over me, Kevin my best friend I hope your finally free. so if your out there somewhere and you are closer than I can see, just know that I am always hoping that you are finally free, but each day I miss you being around, you were the bestest friend that I had ever found, though your gone from this earth you've never left my heart, I wish I could see you once more, it rips me apart, so make sure you come for me when I come to heaven, just know this I miss you more then anything my best mate Kevin.