I don't know how I got so lost in my pursuit for happiness, it cost my family so much joy they could have had spending life with out my stress, and now I took it too far and won't be around to say, but know that when you hurt I hurt the same in everyway. I know I have not made you all very proud of me, selfish I was and couldn't let myself be free, I held on to tormented feeling I didn't need to hold, and you all got to watch my present unfold. I might get taken for a time away from everyone I need, just know this builds a path way for a better chance of life it's just planting the seed. and when I come home you'll see how much I have grown, I hope by then my love for you will all be well known. there is not enough sorrys that I can give to you, and no sorry that can take the pain I put you through, I would have maybe stepped back a seen more clearer, I didn't mean to push you away, I wanted you nearer. but it's to late for sorry now I understand, but thank you all for standing by me giving the strength to help me stand. I promise to try my hardest when I'm home at last. mistakes I will always make but none like my past, I know you have always been there to support my every need, and instead of thanking you I acted out with greed. I didn't love you all the way you deserved love to be shown. if I knew then that id be sitting all alone, id have told you before how much I love you all for putting up me me and hope I can make you proud eventually. the last people I ever wanted to feel the consequences of my bad ways, I see a future in our life filled of better days. I'm sorry once again you are the solid grounds that hold us all, I know you'll catch me when I fall, now it's time for me to change that and become someone you can lean on too, I'm not the responsiblest this is very true, but I will try to do my best and make so many changes I need to make, before I let let this family down and have any one else break.
