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I Haven't Lost Myself

Verse 1 I lost my wife on a Tuesday night, She took the silence, left me the fight. My daughter packed up every dream, Now the house is louder than it’s ever been. Sold my car for a tank of gas, Watched my whole damn future pass. The TV died, the screen went black— Just like everybody I thought had my back. Pre-Chorus But I’m still here. Yeah, I’m still here. Laughing at the wreckage Like I’ve got nothing to fear. CHORUS — SCREAMED I’M KEEPING IT TOGETHER! WITH A HEAD FULL OF STATIC! I LOST EVERYTHING I LOVED! NOW I’M LOSING MY FUCKING MIND! I’M KEEPING IT TOGETHER! CAN’T YOU SEE THESE HANDS SHAKE?! I’M HOLDING UP THE CEILING WITH A HEART THAT’S ABOUT TO BREAK! Verse 2 No keys on the counter, no voice down the hall, No little footsteps, no reason at all. I sleep on the couch where the television died, Staring at the ceiling, trying not to divide Myself into pieces I can’t put back, A thousand little failures wearing one name tag. And everybody says, “Man, you’ll be alright.” So I grin through my teeth and say, “Yeah, probably, right?” BREAKDOWN Wife—gone. Daughter—gone. Car—gone. TV—dead. WHAT’S LEFT?! ME. JUST. ME. AND I’M STILL FUCKING STANDING! Final Chorus I’M KEEPING IT TOGETHER! ONE THREAD AT A TIME! EVERYTHING IS BURNING BUT I’M DRAWING THE LINE! I LOST MY WIFE! I LOST MY DAUGHTER! I LOST MY CAR! I LOST THE GODDAMN TV! BUT I HAVEN’T LOST— I HAVEN’T LOST— I HAVEN’T LOST MYSELF! ...yet. Outro — whispered, then screamed I’m fine. I’m fine. I’m fine. I’M FUCKING FINE!