Hurt you

[verse 1] I didn’t mean for it to go this far you were just a dare at the bar I laughed it off, said “sure, okay” didn’t think it would end this way you were real, I was pretending now I’m stuck in the mess I’m sending every word felt less like mine more like killing time [verse 2] I tried to turn it into love like I could force what wasn’t there stayed too long out of guilt acting like I even cared I learned your habits, your voice, your face but I still couldn’t feel that place knowing you wasn’t enough to turn it into love [bridge] this isn’t your fault you didn’t do anything wrong I just stayed where I didn’t belong [pre-chorus] and I hate that I let it run when I knew it wasn’t one [chorus] I can’t love you like you love me no matter how I stayed I tried to build it from nothing but it broke the same way you deserve more than empty hands more than something I can’t feel I can’t force what isn’t real [post-chorus] (I tried… I tried…) (it won’t stay…) [bridge] you looked at me like I was home but I was never even close every time I tried to stay I felt further away I kept hoping it would change like feelings come that way but all I did was hurt you more by staying at the door [verse 3] you kept giving me your trust like it meant something to us I kept nodding like I knew but I never really knew every “goodnight” felt heavier like I was dragging you further and I swear I didn’t mean to make it feel like a scene [verse 4] I started forcing every smile trying to fake it for a while thinking maybe if I stay it would turn into okay but love doesn’t show up late it doesn’t change its own state and I just kept dragging this like I could fix what I missed [buildup] this can’t be fixed this can’t be forced I can feel it slipping worse [beat drop] [glitch hit • distorted guitars • EDM sub drop] (I can’t love you…) (I can’t love you…) [verse 5] I stopped pretending in my head I stopped lying in your bed every moment felt too loud like I was letting you down and I hate that it took this long to admit where it all went wrong but staying would be worse than leaving even if you’re still believing [verse 6] you deserved something real from me not a half-made memory not a girl just trying to stay hoping feelings would obey I’m not what you thought I’d be and that’s the only truth in me I can’t turn it into love I can’t force what isn’t enough [bridge] this isn’t your fault you didn’t do anything wrong I just stayed where I didn’t belong [pre-chorus] and I hate that I let it run when I knew it wasn’t one [chorus] I can’t love you like you love me no matter how I stayed I tried to build it from nothing but it broke the same way you deserve more than empty hands more than something I can’t feel I can’t force what isn’t real [post-chorus] (I’m sorry…) (I’m sorry…) [bridge] I should’ve said it sooner I should’ve let you go [outro] I didn’t mean to hurt you… but I did…